After our eighth pregnancy loss nearly three years ago, David and I decided to take some much-needed time to rest and heal. We didn’t know how long this period of rest would be and we didn’t know if healing for us would ever result in a healthy pregnancy or baby, but were truly desperate for … Continue reading You Said, “Watch the Giants Fall…”
It's surreal to think after 6 years and 8 pregnancy losses that I am ACTUALLY packing a hospital bag and preparing to bring home TWO babies from the hospital! The miracle of that is not lost on me. So many friends and family members have been so helpful to share all of their "pro-tips", suggestions, … Continue reading What’s Going In My Hospital Bag?
Sweet Little Ones, It has been the greatest joy of my life to carry you now for 33 weeks. I am currently laying in my bed, soaking up each moment and cherishing your sweet little kicks and movements. I am so proud of you already. You are both learning to share, can recognize your mommy … Continue reading Open Letter to My Babies
We are excited to announce that after 6 long years and 8 heartbreaking losses that we are expecting TWINS this October!! I won’t share all of the details here, but just know that this pregnancy and both of these babies are nothing short of absolute miracles. We still don’t have any answers as to why … Continue reading It’s Twins!
I’m a mother, but you cannot see my children. I have carried eight lives in my womb who never made it to their due date, but I’m a mother nevertheless. Mother's Day is for me, too. When I meet strangers who ask if I have children, sometimes I don’t know how to answer. Because yes, … Continue reading Mother’s Day is for Me, Too
I have always been an avid reader. Whether it's a suspenseful mystery novel, an exciting sci-fi series, a romantic love story, an intellectual research summary, or a professional/personal/spiritual development self-help book, I find immense value in carving out time to sit with myself, turn the pages, and reflect on the words printed and the meaning … Continue reading A New Chapter…
I am honored and proud to introduce my husband, David, to you all. We are sharing a journal entry with you that David wrote while he was in the hospital waiting room as I was undergoing emergency surgery earlier this month for an ectopic pregnancy. If you aren't familiar with an ectopic pregnancy, it is … Continue reading This Wicked Sea
The whispers of God and the wrestling with God often leave a permanent mark. On our souls, on our hearts, and sometimes even on our flesh.October 13, 2013 was truly the most beautiful day I could ever imagine. It was the day David and I were married. The weather was perfect... mid-seventies and overcast. Right … Continue reading Courage, Dear Heart
In the words of my husband, a picture speaks a thousand words, but a thousand words isn't nearly enough to describe the emotional, physical, and spiritual pain of grief and loss. For me, this comes in the picture of "infertility" and Recurrent Pregnancy Loss. I know many of you reading may be grieving this Mother's … Continue reading Infertility and Mother’s Day
Well, another year has come and gone. It feels like just yesterday David and I were ringing in 2016, newly pregnant (we would find out the following week) with our fifth little one hoping and longing for 2016 to be the year the Lord would bless us with children. 2016 did not bring us the … Continue reading 2017- A Year of Hope